i feel like im giving up a lot for this girl to follow her …. but could it be that my dream is to see her happy. and i would do anything to see her dreams come true even if it means changing… not eating to look like what she wants… or dressing how she likes… wearing my hair a way…. i love her…. but i would do all of this for her and she would maybe help me with school and help find a school i can live by and make a life. but change for me… no. she thinks shes so ugly… i have never seen a more beautiful girl

i relapsed ….. :( i wrote fuck off in my leg… because my gf thought it would be nice to say it to me..